These may be my last few hours of feeling little baby kicks and seeing my stomach move. The last time I'll have a baby belly to look down at and marvel on the wonders of the human body and all it can do. It might be the last few hours of excited anticipation, nervous and happy all at once. There is just something magical about expecting a new life, a specialness that one remembers long after the baby is walking and telling you she can do it, "All by myself!"
Today we will be welcoming a new little love and our lives will be forever changed, just as they were a little over five years ago when ER joined us. I am thankful for all the time we've had to parent and enjoy her little personality. I treasure all the moments of it being just "Mommy and Me" and am looking forward to discovering a new child's quirks and unique aspects to love. I'm excited to watch him grow and note who he takes after and what features on his little face will mirror my own. Mainly I am looking forward to holding him in my arms, gazing into those eyes, and the start of a new adventure!
I'd also like to say thank you to my mom, who's one reason I can feel relaxed going into my procedure tomorrow. I won't be worrying how ER is doing, since Mom will be with her back at home. She came over and spent the second half of her birthday with us, and will be helping me care for both ER and the baby the first couple of weeks. She helped and supported us so much the first time around, by flying from MI to NM and moving in for about ten weeks, while I was on bed rest and after ER was born. It wouldn't be quite the same without you mom, thanks for everything! I love you!
